Love Spring Update - By Cassi

HI GUYS! 

Well. School has been over for me for exactly a week now! I took my last final last Thursday and it went well. Now is the nailbiting period where I get to wait for my grades to come back in my English classes. I have to kick butt in them so I can get accepted into the English Teaching major so I'm hoping for the best! 

This summer should be interesting. That's all I'm going to say. I know a few of you know what I'm referring to....... There are a few things that I'm really excited about and a few things that I'm pretty worried about as far as this summer goes. It will be interesting, to say the least. 

I think I read all of your messages carefully when we had that huge message chain on updating our lives, but please answer my questions since I may have missed some details. 

Amber, I loved reading your update thing. I'm so excited for you and all the things you're planning for your life. You're a shining star! I'm glad you've found a calling in something you truly loved.

Gabby, I want you to know that you can talk to me whenever you need to, even though we don't talk a lot. I will always being willing to listen. I'm sure any of us would be willing to listen. That's just how we work. You don't have to keep anything inside if you don't want to. 

Jenny! That not having your period thing is really weird. It's been awhile since you posted about that. Has the doctor told you anything significant? I hope things have worked out. That would be super stressful. 

Kera. Dang girl, it sounds like things are working out well for you now, or at least you've been able to be happy about your life at the moment. I'm so happy for you. I love hearing about how things are for you now since you are nothing less than a light and a little ball of sunshine. Thanks for sharing your happiness and insights. 

Moima. Dude. How the heck are you. I have no idea how things are with you besides what others have told me. So I hope you're doing well!

Caitlin. Hi. I love you. I talk to you often enough. :D Um.... Oh! Carpet dots skinny walking often see. Heh heh. Good times. 

Let me tell you all about my latest quest! I am making a PEOPLE BOOK. I am making a book of all the people I love. I'm going to write my favorite things about the people I'm closest to or the people who I have to live with (random roommates ha ha). I am doing this because there were moments over the year when I was seriously annoyed with some people who I really loved. I feel like it would be beneficial for me to be able to go to my people book and read the best things about the people who are getting on my nerves, helping me remember the best in those who may be annoying me a little bit. Basically, it comes down to this huge life realization that I had: people are made of their good parts, not their bad parts. People are not defined by their weaknesses, but their strengths. What people are deep down is their best, not their worst. I find joy and happiness in finding this best in others. That's why I'm really excited about my people book. I also hope it will help me be more patient with that roommate that makes the apartment smell like food from ten days past. :)

That's all for now guys. I love you all. I look forward to the day when we will meet again. Because I have faith that we will! 

<3 Cassi

Hey there...

So, I know I said that I would post more when I was in New York, but I got a little bit distracted. So here I am now! I've been back about a week and a half- but it feels like longer. I hate to say it, but I hate it here now. I've never hated my house as much as I do now.
I'm not going to go into the intricacies of my mental illness with you guys. Truthfully, it upsets me too much. Things are changing, and I am not very good at dealing with them. For one, my friendships are nothing like they used to be. I feel so isolated from the rest of you guys. Knowing that all of you guys are close to entering your junior year of college, but I barely have enough credits to be a sophomore. The place I thought was my dream school is not the place that I am going to graduate from. I have no idea where my life is going.
Anyway. I'll stop with the self-deprication. Because I have some exciting news! Most of you guys probably already know this, but I am going to post it on here anyway. I have a job for the summer-away from Pickerington!!!! I am going to be a camp counselor, living with 8 and 9 year olds, at Camp Pinecliffe, and all-girls summer camp in Harrison, Maine. And I am so excited! I am going to be gone from June 14 to August 13, so I won't be here to see you guys very much. But truth be told, as much as I love you all, I am totally okay with that. I could not be more thrilled!
So, that's it for me. I'll try to keep you all updated on how I am doing.
Love,
Gabby

Babble Babble Babble

ok, so HIII!!!!! i feel like we all got all caught up in our lives and forgot about this wonderful thing that Cassi created, and Gabby's post made me want to update you on my life. However, it is not quite so interesting as NYC ;)

anyway, this is appropriately titled because it is exactly what i plan to do; babble. lol. so first of all, I am pledging a Christian club, Kappa Phi, which runs like a sorority. We had to go to pledge meetings, do tons of interviews (as in around 60), quizzes, a fundraiser, a service project, and some other things. well I AM DONE WITH MY INTERVIEWS!!!! which is so extremely exciting, bc its the most stressful part of pledging. lol. so yeah, we have done the fundraiser, we are doing the service on friday, and we have a national test on tuesday. therefore: I AM ALMOST A SISTER!!!! and i'm totally excited about it :D

in other news . . . i am still with Sam and very happy about it :) not much has changed there . . . i am very much in love and very much enjoying it. lol.

umm . . . i am uber involved. like 11 organizations . . .  its crazy. but good. i have decided that i'm going to drop some things, or at least scale back as i can so i have more time to relax.

on not-so-happy note . . . i have been driving myself crazy. not nearly as serious as what Gabbyrific has been dealing with, but yeah, doubting myself in multiple ways and not feeling like i'm allowed to feel the way i feel and not knowing why people, like Sam, love me, and yeah. i know that i can be confident and happy and its driving me crazy that i can't seem to get back to that. but i am going to my counseling center, and its definitely helping. Along these lines, i haven't had a period in nearly 8 months (since august 18). i know you probably don't want to know that, but i'm sharing anyway (have i ever not been open about these things?) so yeah, its kinda freaking me out, bc its definitely not natural, and i feel like its affecting the whole doubting myself thing bc there's no way that my hormones are normal right now. so yeah, i'm going to see my doctor the day after easter and see what she says. i keep y'all updated. . . cuz its definitely worrying me . . . but yeah.

so . . . what else??? i can't end on that note, its too ugly. lol. umm . . . that's really most of my life right now. lol. oh! i dont have french until next thursday, which means more sleep for me! yay! lol. but anyway, i would LOVE to see an update from everyone, bc from what little bits i see on fb, i have NO IDEA what is going on in everyone's life and this is a sad fact. it must be changed. lol.

ummm . . . so yeah, i'm really excited about Kappa Phi, bc we made our big lists last night. i really want this one girl, Jen Tabar, to be my big. i love her so much. but yeah, i wont find out until i get initiated . . . so yeah.
i think that's it. i apologize for the really long, unnecessary babble time, but yeah, i felt like it ;P

hope all is well or at least getting better!
love always,
Jenny